Sometimes it feels like all of the goals and lists are just another example of my shortcomings. Even though I may make progress toward a goal or a few goals, sometimes it just feels like I’m stuck and I can’t seem to see or feel like I’m making any progress.
I’ve let this feeling push me to both sides of the spectrum in my opinion and use of goals. I start by setting a number of very clear and ambitious goals. Then I start to make progress toward them and get all kinds of energy and excitement as I start to feel like I’m making progress. At some point, however, there comes this point. Not exactly sure what that point is or why it keeps happening. I find myself feeling overwhelmed, then I procrastinate, then I start to feel apathetic and next thing you know it I’m in full-blown depression. Once I end up there, I typically throw out the goals (or at least the idea of goals) and just stop. I curse my goals. I stop doing anything and all of the fears that surround not achieving my goals start to happen (or show signs of happening) and it all turns into a self fulfilling prophecy.
I see this consistent pattern and cycle. I’ve struggled for years trying to figure out what the problem is. Recently, I’ve found myself wondering if that really is a problem. It must be something wrong in my thinking or actions. There has to be something that I am missing.
